What I'm Missing...

~ I miss the "smell" of rain...yes, it rains here ALOT...but it rains so much that you don't get that "smell"... I've
only smelt it once and that was last week and it just reminded me of how much I miss that smell and that I used to actually enjoy it when it rained.

~ I miss having dry pants when I go out... no, I don't wet my pants...but the bottoms of them are constantly wet from it raining and being wet outside almost all the time.

~ I miss not having to think all the time. I seem to be thinking all the time out here, contemplating about what my goals in life are and how I can figure out what I'm suppose to do with my life besides be a mother and a wife...which I am thankful for and I enjoy...but I'm ready for more and I'm not sure what that truly is yet!

~ I miss my family, all my nieces and nephews and siblings and parents...I've gotten used to being far from them all...but I still miss them dearly.

~ I miss the sun, I find myself so much more energetic when it decides to grace us with its presence.

~ I miss cold winters...call me crazy, but I do. I miss having my nostrils stick together when I breath in deeply during a cold snap and the sun that shines on the fields of snow making it all sparkly!

~ I miss seeing forever!

~ I miss feeling at peace in my life.

~ I miss having little little kids...but do enjoy the ages that my kids are now and I am so proud of who they are growing up to be!

~ I miss knowing who I am...these days I don't have a clue!

~ I miss being able to go for a walk anytime of the day...anywhere that I want and know for a fact that there won't be a bear around the corner!!

~ I miss the "crop talk" that my parents would discuss as we would travel on country roads...even though I never knew what crop was which...I miss the "country"...you know?

~ I miss old houses and neighborhoods...ones with character and charm and big trees along the streets.

~ I miss having certain opportunities and advantages of a bigger city or atleast living closer to one.

~ I miss amazing thunderstorms...the excitement, the fear...everything about them!

~ I miss getting together with my best friends every friday night...oh how I miss that Mel and Den!!

~ I miss being able to enjoy being outside in the summer without being eaten alive by black flies...call me crazy, but I'd rather be bitten by mosquitoes than black flies...atleast you can feel when most mosquitoes are biting you...black flies, you don't...they suck your blood and my bites itch for a month or more!

~ I miss shopping in a nice big mall...call me vain, but Walmart just ain't cutting it anymore!

~ I miss Booster Juice...even though I can make my own, but still!


I miss so much of my life before here. Don't get me wrong, there are many things that I do like about living here...but I'm growing tired and weary of this place. Both Jason and I are. We don't like to talk about this that much to anyone...but things are changing for us it seems. I'm not sure what our future holds...we have some ideas as to what we would like to see happen, but only God knows what the future holds for our lives. Sometimes it so hard to give it all to Him...but thats my reality and I just have to have faith that He knows what he's doing!! Jason's job is good...but its a go no where type of job...and there aren't many opportunities elsewhere in this area for what he does...so it would be nice to have options and choices for him, a place where he can grow and expand his knowledge. There's so much that goes on in this mind of mine these days. I'm trying so hard to be content...but its hard some days. Jason really loves the fishing out here...so if we ever do leave, I pray that we can find another place where he can keep up with this hobby of his.

I guess what I'm saying is that we are thinking about going somewhere else. I'm not sure when or where...it may take some time...but both of us are ready for a new adventure. This place has been good to us, and it continues to...but sometimes you just need to move on. Until then, we will enjoy our lives out here the best we can. I know the day that we do decide to leave, it will be hard...but I will be excited all the same.

Just know that I don't hate it here...I have made some dear friends and have seen some amazing things and done some really cool things...but it may just be time to move on. It makes me kind of sad to realize all this...but we always knew that we wouldn't be here forever. Time will tell what our future holds!

Not much to say...but I'm sure you will after this post!

Ok...so its been a while, but really I have nothing exciting to say. Well maybe I do...just don't feel like saying it. One major event in our house is that Rowyn is now in kindergarten...yes, every afternoon I have to myself...I love it! And he's doing really well, so I am very proud of him!
A couple of weeks ago I got an email from my friend Denley...here it is...










READ FIRST !!
For those who have kids, grandchildren or a planning to have kids at some point in the future, here is a perfect example of why no horseplayshould be allowed at the dinner table. Look at the first picture and study the marks the boy is pointing at,and try to guess what caused it. Then open the second picture. Prepare yourself to take a gasp of air!

Nothing here...just taking up space until you get to the next pic!..........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

And Update!

Well its been a while hasn't it? Where to start?

I decided that I needed to go home to Saskatoon so within two days of thinking that I had three bus tickets for me and my kids. We decided to just go as far as Edmonton and then my parents picked us up from there so we didn't have a five hour layover...not that I didn't know anyone to come and pick us up for a visit...but by the time we got there we had already been on the bus for 18 hours...so not really in the mood for too much chit chat and the kids just needed to get to our destination.

While in Stoon I went shopping...ALOT!!! Out here I'm pretty limited with our small selection of stores. So it was so nice to go to a "real" mall and to stores that we don't have anywhere near us. I admit I spent a bit too much...oh well, life goes on! I also got to hang out with my family...my parents, and my sister, her husband and her three kids. It was a much needed time away from here! I got to see some pretty good thunder and lightning storms...something we hardly get out here at all, we get one good boom and maybe a flash or two and thats it!!!

I also got to hang out with some good friends on a couple of evenings. It was so nice to see you all.

I know I didn't get to see everyone that I wanted to...but this trip was more about me getting away from here and just relaxing and giving my brain a break...call me selfish...but I needed this trip, whether I saw people or not. Next time I hope to see a few that I missed this time around.

My parents drove me back to Edmonton...actually Spruce Grove. There I stayed with Jason's brother Barry and his wife Melissa and two girls for a couple of days. It was nice visiting with them too. I was able to check out their new house as well...its very nice! We then left from Edmonton for here late last wednesday night.

During our bus ride back we saw a wolf and a few other wild things. I had never seen a wolf out in the wild...it was so cool. Jason's seen a couple this summer...weird how all of a sudden you start seeing them.

The kids did well on the bus ride. We had a few outbursts and uncomfortable sleeps...but all in all they did pretty well. Rowyn had a problem peeing on the bus...he won't go in anything that looks like and outhouse toilet...so I ended up getting him to pee into an empty bottle...gross, yes...but probably less gross than sitting on the bus toilet!! It worked and thats all that mattered.

So now we're back. Its taken a bit to get back into the swing of things...but its slowly coming along. School starts next tuesday!!! Rowyn's starting kindergarten this year as well...but he doesn't start until the 12th or so...not sure why, but thats just the way it is I guess. Syd's going into grade five...my goodness! My kids are definitely growing up!

I'm having a bit of a hard time it seems. There's alot going on in my head and my mind. I can honestly say that I am sick and tired of living with hardly any sun! I feel as if over the past year the sun has only shone about %10 of the time. We had such a long winter...it rained or snowed almost everyday. We hardly had a summer. I think I only wore shorts twice...seriously!!! I really think that all this gloom has led to some of my down times. I don't know if I'm cut out for this. And now...fall is quickly approaching, the days are getting shorter again and the sun still hardly shines. Its quite depressing! And for someone who is trying to deal with that part of her life...it doesn't help!!! Not sure what I'm trying to say here...well I kind of do, but don't want to say it! I literally feel like Eeyore...like I have a rainy cloud over my head all the time. Not sure what to do about it anymore. It comes and goes...but I seriously think that I need more sun in my life. Real sun...not no sun lamp thingy!!

Well thats about it. I have more to say...but for now, thats enough! Enjoy whats left of your summer!

I'm here...just haven't had much time to update this thing. An update is coming soon...maybe later on tonight, we'll see if I'm in the mood or not.

I hope everyone is enjoying what's left of summer...around here, I feel as if we hardly had one!

I'm off for my 100hr trip! haha!

Just a short post. I'm leaving...on a jet plane...well no, but on a bus...yes! The kids and I are going on a trip so we'll see ya when we see ya! Pray for my sanity for the next 100 um I mean 18 hours! (Christy...ya know I love ya! haha!)