Friday, June 15, 2007

How things change!

Its amazing how much things can change in a day!!! Last night, after my big vent on here, I went for a long walk...that helped for the most part I think. Plus I know that there are people out there praying for me, and I appreciate that soooo much! And I was reminded that alot of my feelings were an attack by "you know who"...so I didn't want him to win, so I needed to snap myself out of it. By the time I went to bed, I was feeling alot better.

So today, I went to the college to work on my Biology. I don't have to go, as I'm in a self-paced course...but my instructor said that she would like to see me there every once in a while, just to keep my motivated. Well after I was done, I went and talked to an educational advisor about the LPN program and how I misplaced my letter for volunteer hours. She put her head down and said..."oh boy, I have to tell you something"...I'm thinking that I'm in trouble or something! She said the the LPN program has now been postponed until Jan. 2009!!! Ahhhh! It was already postponed from this Sept to Jan 2008! So it looks like I won't be going to school in the next year at all. In some ways I'm not happy about it...and in others, I think its a blessing in disguise. I had mixed feelings about going, because Rowyn is only in school for half days for kindergarten this fall, and I'd have to send him to a sitter for the time he wasn't in school. Now I don't...so that'll save us some money, and he'll be with me. I'm not sure how I feel really...I really don't feel anything. I guess God knows better than me as to what I'm suppose to be doing with my life right now. Maybe something else will come up...its in HIS hands, it always is, although I forget that most of the time.

So thats about it. Now there's no rush to get this upgrading done...but I'm still going to do it. I've paid my fees and paid for my books...so I might as well do it!!

3 comments:

Ej said...

I am glad you are feeling a bit better - I've been having off days too lately - I try and remember that there are good days coming. I wish it would just go away - but I know I am strong enough to get through and there is light at the end of the tunnel. God will win - he's got the power!

As for school - think of it as a blessing in disguise - you now have all the time you need to do the refreshers, and you can start to make plans for how you'll deal with being a student, wife, mother, & human being ;-) I too want tot go back to school but the timing just isn't quite right being pregnant and all. I am using this time to really figure out what I am supposed to do so that when I go back I can know i am int he right place. Do you read Running Wildly's blog - she has a great post about this. You can access it through my blog if you don't. It is her Defining Moment post - it's a good read (she also happens to be a 3rd year nursing student!)

Keep on Keepin on!

Carin said...

Oh wow!! that is news!! I am glad that you were able to pull through... smiles... and you are so right about God's timing... maybe he has something else for you in the meantime... hmm... what surprise for you might there be waiting from Papa's hand?! can't wait to find out!!
Squishes

starla said...

hey, it was nice seeing you guys this weekend! call me to walk anytime!

 
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