Up, down and all around!

So this past week has had its ups and downs. Downs...being sick. A week ago I came down with the stomach flu big time...still feel a bit icky here and there...but I also got a flu shot yesterday, so I'm sure that hasn't helped. Rowyn's been sick too...he missed this whole week from school. Just coughing alot and plugged up. On monday night his temp. read 101 in his armpit!!! Not good! It was 99 in his mouth...but I don't know how accurate that was as he couldn't keep his mouth shut from being so congested. But he's back to his goofy self...but crashes hard when its bed time.

I have been dealing with much confusion as of late. I feel so confused these days...I don't know if I should come or go or what I should be doing!!! I feel like I'm being pulled in a million directions yet I'm not going anywhere! Make sense? No...I don't think it does either...hence my confusion!! I've been humming and hawing over this school thing. I'm registered to take the home support/resident care aide course in Jan. (as I think I've mentioned in an earlier post) but I've had thoughts of not doing it. Its not exactly what I want to do. What I have wanted to do is the LPN course...which I was going to take but they cancelled it until some time in 2009!! So that kind of through me for a bit of a loop. Anyways, I thought I'd take the HSRA course...even though it wasn't what I really wanted to do. Lately though I've been having thoughts to just axe it all and do nothing. Finding a babysitter for Rowyn is not going as planned...and I feel bad as this is his last year not being in school full time...why do I feel like I need to do this now and not wait a year? I could wait a year...but I have this uncontrollable feeling that I NEED to do this now. I can't explain it! Its a very frustrating feeling to say the least. I just need to find a sitter where he is loved and well taken care of and...where he can get driven to school for the afternoon. So really...I need someone for 3-4 hours in the morning and thats it. I have a friend that says she would maybe do it...but doesn't know if she could drive him to school...then I found out that I may be able to put him with a daycare and have it subsidized...which would be awesome not having to pay for babysitting, but alot of those daycares have too many kids that they can't drive him to school. AHHHHHHHH!!!!!! I cannot win. So I am praying really hard that something will turn out. My neighbor has a daycare and even though she's not my favorite person...she does well with the kids and Rowyn knows alot of them from talking over the fence from the deck in the summers. He also told me that a girl in his class goes there and that her mom drops her off at school....soooooo, I'm going to check that out, maybe if my neighbor has room for him, this girl's mom could bring him too...or we could take turns or something!!! I'm praying for a bit of a miracle here, or atleast thats how I see it. This will be the kicker for school. I could come back here on my lunch and pick him up from a sitter and drive him myself...but thats alot of driving as the college is way on the other side of town. I guess time will tell. This is all I have left to finalize before school...but its the most important thing for me. I want him to be comfortable and happy no matter where he goes. I'm afraid as it is to go to school...I just want it to be easy and not too frustrating.

So about school (this is a stinkin long post). I had almost come to the point where I wasn't going to go. But after talking with my mom...and Jason, I have decided that I will. I still want to be a practical nurse and then want to specialize someday (operating room tech would be ideal!!) but for now I need to see this as a stepping stone. This course I will be able to take with me wherever I go...and thats important to me. I need to not rush this process...but more than anything...I need to trust God that he knows what he's doing with all of this! Somedays though...my faith is next to nothing...I know that I need to change that. He'll get me through this...this will all work itself out. Its just so hard somedays because I mostly sit at home thinking about all that could go wrong, and all that isn't going according to MY will...which is so not the way to think is it? No!!!

God is working on me so hard out here. I have no family here...I have to do everything for myself, and its been hard, but its been a learning process. Its caused me to rely more on Him than anything. Like my cell leader said tonight...if we don't have God in our lives to rely on...we don't have anything...and if our friends don't have God in their lives...there is NO way that we can rely on them...or something like that. I too often put my faith and hope in others...and you know what? I am always let down. Not that people let me down on purpose...but thats just human nature. At some point in time we will all let someone down. But God...he is always there...ALWAYS!!! I am so thankful for that.

Well this post got alot longer than I had planned. I just ask for your prayers...that I can find a good reliable, loving sitter for Rowyn, that I can find transportation for Rowyn to school...that I will have faith in this whole entire process. I have a couple of more immunizations to get and a criminal record check...then I am ready for school. Its only a month and one week away! I'm scared, nervous, yet excited to finally be doing something for me...and my family. I think I'm going to be alot happier having something to focus on rather than all the negatives that fill my mind most days.

I hope you're all doing well and keeping warm.

Heads Up!

Hey there...now I may have emailed some of you about this movie. I had an email passed on to me by a friend. I hadn't heard of the movie at that time...but now have seen the commercials on TV and thought I'd check it out some more. I found this article about it...read it and come to your own conclusions...I think we will all agree that its something that most of us will not be exposing our children to. Thanks.

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Last but not least!

Well I'm a bit late in posting...but I thought I'd finish off this challenge with my seventh post.

Today was a pretty relaxed day...went to church, then out for lunch with friends then to a baby shower, then home, had a bit of a nap, then talked for a loooong time with a great friend on the phone.

<-This friend of mine...what can I say. She is a huge blessing in my life. We have never actually met in person, but we hopefully will in the coming new year. God sure knew what he was doing when he put the two of us into one another's lives! We have more in common than I have ever had with just one person! We can talk about anything and there is never any judgement...ever! Even if we have a different view on particular topics...its still ok...I love it. She makes me laugh all the time. I cannot wait until the day we can finally meet and give eachother a great big hug. I know that I'll cry, but it'll be tears of happiness!! I don't know if she really knows how much her friendship had blessed me and helped me through so many things. I've never had a friendship like this before. Not that I don't love my other friends just as much...but this friendship is so different and unlike any friendship that I have ever had before. Its so weird how we "met", but so cool just the same. We tell eachother that we love one another on a regular basis, its so cool. It is definately a special friendship, unlike any other. She lives all the way in Ontario, so seeing her is hard, but I hope to fly out there someday and have a nice getaway by myself while visiting with her. We're hoping to meet in Vancouver sometime after February. Why after Feb? Well her brother just happens to be my favorite singer, so he's releasing his new album mid Feb and then will be going on tour sometime after that, so when he hits Van City, she's going to tag along with him and meet me there. Oh how I cannot wait!!! I'll get to meet her and see an amazing concert as well! And then the shopping...oh my!! I'm excited just thinking about it!

So here's to you Jord! I love you and look forward to many more chats on the phone until we can get together for some good times!!

Beating heart

Can you tell that I'm getting desperate for posts? This is a video of Syd holding a heart from one of Jason's coho's this past summer/fall.

#5...is alive!

Well here we are on post five and Tamara hasn't commented yet...hmmm, did she forget that she challenged me to this??? I think so!! I'll have to give her a good razzing in church on sunday I guess!

So I'm still feeling a bit shitakeous (yes, I like to make up my own words!), not any better, not any worse...atleast I'm not worse. My boy on the other hand, I think he's coming down with something...I don't know how sick that kid has to get though, nothing seems to slow him down. Not that I want him to get really sick...he's been a pretty healthy boy all his five years...I want to keep it that way...he's never even thrown up...seriously!!! (knocking on a BIG chunk of wood right now! haha!) He has a b'day party to go to tomorrow and I know he'll be very upset if he can't go...but I guess we'll just have to see what tomorrow brings!

Went to a candle party tonight...I haven't been to one in about four of five years and this is the second time I have ever bought something I think...but it was a good evening out...just a few of us, some smelling and some eating...good times!!

Well thats about it. Hope you all have a good weekend and I guess I'll be back on here tomorrow sometime!

BTW...Amber, I'm glad I could make you laugh...you need to watch the Spy Kids movie's when your kids get a bit older. Janelle...I would've loved to have vegged with you on a couch today. Erin...the liquid is back! ugh!!! Good old BC! I hope J-man settles down for you soon...sending a prayer your way!

Post #4

Once again, not much to say except that I feel like a Shitake Mushroom...take the first part of shitake and you'll know what I'm talking about. I have a bit of a cough, a bit of a tickly throat and just feel wasted, nothing major, just enought to feel crappy.

Great post eh? Oh and I think that the person that challenged me to seven posts in a row should atleast comment on some of my posts!! Yep, I think she should!!

Around here...

So on sunday we took the Tahoe out for once last fling until we get it ready to sell. We headed up Shames mountian just for fun. Got to the top and had a snow fight...it was kind of nice to be in the snow for a bit...little did I know that the next day we'd be covered in it. Atleast it brighten's things up a bit.

Silly kid
Jason
The view from Shames Mountain
Rowyn enjoying the snow fight!

Syd enjoying the snow too!

Raindrops on noses...we have wiskers on kittens too, but they won't go near this guy willingly!

A Post...a half hour late.

Here is a post...not much to say...went to the hotsprings again, they were closed for unknown reasons...disappointed...went to DQ with Chris and Christy instead...then watched the Biggest Loser with Christy and chatted the evening away.

Did I lose the challenge now cause I'm late? Hmmmmm

I've been challenged!

So I've been challenged by Tamara to post everyday for seven days...my competitor is Justin, a man whom I hope to meet someday!!

Yesterday we headed up Shames Mountain for a bit...hat a snow fight and came back down. Here are some pics! There were even people up there with their boards and ski's...I don't think its open yet...but what do I know!

Ok...I tried to upload pics and its taking too stinkin long and not really working...so I'll try another day or later on.

It snowed over night...we were covered in a thick blanket of white...now we're covered in a soggy mess!

Happy 10th Birthday Syd!!

So friday was party night in this household! We had a party for Syd with four of her close friends. Let me tell you...five ten year old girls makes for a very loud house!!!!

We first had a bit of supper and then headed off to the hotsprings which are about fifteen minutes away from our house. It was a lot of fun, I really enjoyed hanging out with the girls and watching Rowyn playing in the water...he has no fear!!

Then it was back to our place for some cake and gifts. Christy and Tristan and Tamara stopped by as well. Christy and Tamara showed the girls some of their smokin dance moves...I wish I had taken pics...or better yet, video!! Thankyou ladies for blessing Syd with your friendship...it was nice to have some "family" over to celebrate with her!! Then the girls went downstairs, set up their sleeping arrangments and watched a movie and became pretty quiet which was very nice!!

All in all it went pretty good. Nothing major happened which is all one can hope for!

I can't believe that my girl is 10 already...where does the time go? I swear that time goes by so much faster once you have kids!!!

She is growing up so fast, in more ways than one....eeek! But she is such a good kid, with a good head on her shoulders. She has blessed me in more ways that I could have ever imagined. I thank God everyday for the gift that He gave me when He allowed me to be her mom!

Happy Birthday Syd!!

Pictures from our Rupert Trip!

Sisterly and brotherly love!

Syd excited about the dolphins!

Rowyn enjoying the nice day.

Just before we went home we went back to Ridley Island to see if the dolphins were back...they were, but didn't stick around for very long...I took this just as we were leaving to head home. (my pics are all in backwards order in this post...sorry)

Gorgeous ocean waters!
One of the dolphins that we saw on Ridley Island two weeks ago.
Yes...that is a dolphin...all this pic show's is how close we were to them...they came even closer than this...but I missed it!!